do u even know how much i love you? i love you so much that i cannt handle. i love u so much that i cant live without you. i live u so much that i miss you like crazy without you around. the love ive for you, i duno how can i describe it so that u will understand how much i love you. how much do you love me? do you even know that 1 word from you can make my world crumble. 1 word from you can make my dae. do you even know? im willing to do everithing for you. everithing. i keep things to myself so tat u wun feel irritated. but u dun. u dun understand. u sae it's my fault. i didnt sae that when u have confinement it's ur fault and that u like it. i wanted so much to see you. definitely i will b abit angry when u told me you had confinement again. bcos i wanted to spend so much time with you. i wanted to spend everi weekend with it. but from 2nights to 1 night. 1 night to few hrs. it's nt enuff. nt enuff for me to love you. nt enuff for me to show u my love. not enuff for me. not enuff. dun u understand? cant u understand? why isit that no matter wad i sae u wun understand? over these 2yrs that we've been tog, how mani times have u mention that would like to break off. but jus for a short 1.5months after u went ns, u said u wanted break up 3times. i dun wan to quarrel with you. i hang up ur phone. in the end you scolded me even more, saeing that i created all this unhappiness. i dun wish to. i wish to jus cry to myself. wad else can i do? but when i ans ur call, it's onli more and more accussation. i dun wan to hear. i dun wan to hear you shouting at me. it's onli normally that im pissed when i know you have another confinement. but why can't i even be pissed? i didnt scold you. onli sae abit. and you gimmie attitude. but i was being scolded for giving you fuck up attitude. what haf i done wrong again tis time? why isit that u have changed so much. changed so much that it's so hard for me to absorb, so hard for me to understand. so hard for you to understnd me animore? it's enuff le bahs. enuff for u. mayb u have never even love me in the 1st place. bye. take care of yourself in tekong.