i realli shouldnt even turn up at the airport on that dae. regret regret. i should make him hate me bcos i fly his aeroplane instead of arguing wif him & still he hates me & i hates him & make myself unhappy. was late on the dae morning. and my hp no batt. and u know the funniest ting he did? because hp no batt so he's unable to contact me. he actualli email me. content of the email? 'hey, are you alreadi on the way?' funni lehs. if i on the wae, how do i reach ur email? i saw tat onli after ive reach vietnam and tried to go online using his lappie while he's awae.

the whole trip jus sucks. the reason why i didnt wan to turn up for the trip is bcos i dun wish to spend time wif him. bcos he's such a arrogant & selfish person. he makes himself sounds so perfect, sounds so he-is-the-best and doesn admit ani mistake, if ani, that ppl haf pointed out. few tings tat pissed me off:

1. resort if beautiful, no objection. but then resort is 20-30mins awae from 'town' where their will den haf restaurant. if u jus decide to walk out of the resort, there's nothin. onli those houses lor.
2. he's laughing at everi single ting. eg. when im watchin the tv, he will go 'oh, this is the wad show huh' den he shut up awhile. and he will sae 'yea, this is the who(actor name) right' and finally he will sae 'yes, the night in museum!' and he wun shut up. throughout the show, everi 2-3mins he will go ha-ha-ha for nothing particular that funni. he jus cant keep his mouth shut?
3. haf alreadi told him tat my leg and back is hafing some problem so i cant keep on walking. and he sae okie. there wun b so much walk. and after this he actualli brought me to walk around for 3hrs bcos inside the town there's no cab, u haf to walk, or take their motor bike. idiot. and when i finally complain after 3hrs 'how long more do we haf to walk? my leg is feeling painful liaos' and his repli? it's gd for pregnant lady to exercise! fcuking hell
4. finally after more then 3hrs of walking, he decide to head back. and im happi bcos town is nothin much. in fact there's onli tailor and he's happily lookin for tailor to make pants and jackets for him. while i jus wait and wait. so when we head back to the carpark where der's taxi, he asked 'how much?' and when the person say 17USD, he argued. '15USD' it's onli 2USD lehs! he cannt afford i pae lar. fcuking idiotic. my leg is painful and my back is painful too. so after 10nins of 17-15-17-15. finally dey sae okie. 15USD-share. and he dun understand wad dey talking. happily tinkin that he is so gd at bargaining. -oh yea, he doesn understand wad dey mean. like when dey ask buffet or ala cart? walking onli. all this kind of stuff in english. jus tat their's is kinda broken. he dun understand but pretend to understand! and he even tell me, oh i can understand their english. in the end i alwaes haf to tell them wad he mean. - and den the taxi driver (7seater taxi) pull down the seats and wan us to get to the back back seats. and he's like 'no no, we take the front can alreadi' and i told him, u wan 15USD, it is sharing. and he's like SHARE?! u wan to save 2USD and end up it's a torturing journey back via sitting at the back lor.
5. finally reached resort & he asked whether im tired. i told him clearly, yes im tired & i need alot of rest. he even asked, i guess at this stage nw u need alot of rest right? yes, i told him yes! but damn. after tat he continue to talk despite me nw answering him. and im alreadi lying on my bed trying to sleep while he blah awae.
6. i tried to reach my books wif veri lil lights on bcos i thought i may jus fall asleep so dun need so mani lights and he sae it's not gd, why stae in so lil light places. ended up for the 1st night, we haf dinner in the hotel. and he decide to haf a poolside dinner restaurant. and when ppl gif him a well lit place, he wanted to b in the dark dark place. where i can barely see aniting. and i told him, why u wan to stae in such dark place? how to eat? and he tell me 'oh, i thought that table is closer to the pool.' why dun u jus jump into the pool den? idiot.

im not used to their food and am alreadi nt feeling well. dreadin to go home soon. 2nd dae is the dae when we went for our 1 day tour. before we depart he actualli did emailed me the itinerary and asked me how isit. isit ok for that 1 day tour. the content jus state that what isit included, price & the places we're going to visit. that's all. so i told him okie, no problem. onli on that dae then i realise that we need to take 3hrs to the location & 3hrs back. and it's raining somemore! throughout the whole journey im feelin damn unwell. i wanted to vomit, but i know i can bcos there's no plastic bag and dey cant jus let me off the car to vomit. damn terrible. and all the while i kept my mouth shut. and he did know that im not talking to him, but he take it as ive attitude problem for not talking and not bcos im not feeling well! idiot.

after the tour he even asked whether i wan to go to town, which means another 20mins journey to town? told him to go ahead & he's like, u realli dun wan to go? cant u see im alreadi so sick? and the moment i reach my room i jus went to the toilet & puke. and he da bao stuff back for me. and when i saw the food i went to puke again. took a few mouthful & decide i cant take it animore else i will puke again. serious headache and went to sleep at around 8pm. 3rd dae is the worst. for no reason he set his alarm at 8am in the morning and im a light sleeper, i woke up by it even before he wakes up to switch it off. and he asked me to wake up. go to town, he said. town again?! 1st dae alreadi walk finish liaos. town got wad ting? small & haf to walk around. no thanks. then he asked me to go for breakfast. headache bcomes migraine. told him to go ahead. and he started to lecture me saeing that 'u are carrying a baby. u dun wan to eat ur baby also haf to eat ok' fcuking idiot. i ask u to go ahead doesn mean i wun eat later. i ask u to go ahead bcos i duno u haf wad plans and doesn wan to spoilt it. and yet u turn around and lecture me?
for 3 daes, it's the first time i told u to go ahead bcos im feeling unwell. and u are lecturing me. u should b the one at fault. i shut my mouth & didnt ans and all the while he's ranting this and that, saeing i shouldnt do this that i duno how to take care of myself, torturing my baby blah blah blah. finally decide i cant take it and shouted back at him 'if u tink i like myself to b like this then go ahead. even if i feel like vomiting after every meals i still eat ok and this is the first time' so he shut up, finally i thought, and then go one again askin wan da bao back or not etc. pissed. finally he left me alone & sae he will go to town, back in afternoon.

so when afternoon he came back, i still choose not to talk to him, answering his qns wif ok,yes,no. and when night times came, he haf to choose to talk again. he started by asking can he talk. yes, he can talk, but i dun wanna talk. so i sae ok. and he go on and on and on and on and on. for duno more then 30mins? he jus talk and suddenly stop. 10mins later, he continue talking again. and all the while me shutting up bcos i dun wish to argue wif him. i wished in my heart he can jus stop & leave me alone to rest bcos im still nt feeling well & i dun wish to quarrel wif him bcos it's not going to be a nice ting to happen. but he kept forcing me by talking and talking. finally i told him that i dun wish to talk abt it. that's my ans. but he talk it as nothin and still continue ranting.
enuff of him & i decide to leave. and he shouted 'leave all u. u can leave nw. leave!' so i pack all my stuff asked me to return me my passport bcos it's in the safe & i duno the password. and he asked 'where are u going' fcuker asked me where im going where he asked me to leave? told him none of his business & he can jus gimmie back my passport since he alreadi mention that i can leave. and he decide to change his mind by saeing 'ok, stae nw okie. u dun haf to leave' im not ur dog, not ur gf, nt afraid of u. why should i listen to wadever u sae? listen to all ur commands, and do wad u order me to? so i demand back my passport & he sae he will stop talkin if i stae. and i told him this 'after 1 whole dae of nonesense then u are telling me this?' and he actualli shouted veri loudly at me 'this is not nonesense!' veri well, he decide not to gimmie back my passport, and so i left the room, barefooted, with nothing wif me. jus walk out of the room. and behind me he's still ordering me 'come back i tell u. come back nw. where are u going. come back!' fcuk off .

and i sit by a dark corner by the pool. and sitted there for a long time & then he came lookin for me and he found me. ignored him & he start his nonesense again. and i kept repeatin i dun wish to talk dun wish to talk, dun wan to talk. and u know wad he said? he said, 'i dun care how mani fcukin times u said u dun wish to talk. i jus wan to know wad's wrong!' okie. and wif that i walk awae bcos he's unreasonable. he still manage to trace me down no matter hw. i thought the resort quite big -.- and he tell me 'it's not funni animore. come back.' and i replied 'i didnt tink it's funni. u wan to go back to the room go ahead. i will go back when i wan to. i dun need anibodi to order me around' and he go pls, come back to the room. and then he realise wadever he sae im nt going back. so he follow me around to the beach.

told him at the beach, i hate him bcos he's arrogant & so full of himself. sorriew but to sae the truth, i didnt even wan to turn up for the trip for fear of nt being able to actualli tolerate all the nonesense. and i alreadi know wad kind of person he is long before. he's full of himself. alwaes picturing himself to b a perfect guy. hiding all the failures & ugliness underneath him. never admit defeat & hence, why should i even tell him wad's wrong? bcos he will find means and waes to argue wif him that, no, he's not wrong. the whole trip is ruined bcos of me, not bcos of somethin he said. and he gaf me a veri ridiculous ans 'let me b the judge. i will judge whether im wrong or right' and i told him this 'so a murderer is his own judge and he will never ever tinks that he kill this person is wrong bcos in his view, he kill because he feel that the guy should leave. so the murderer can jus go to court & set himself free, right?' and he can even tell me right. dun even know how much is his IQ man. maybe 0 bahs.

tell him that i kept my mouth shut bcos i dun wish to quarrel. from wad happen earlier on & wad happen in the morning, it shows that the moment i open my mouth we will definitely quarerl. so wad makes he tinks that it will solve the problem? he doesn wan to acknowledge this point, and continue to sae that he dun care, he jus wan to know wad's the problem. and my replied 'u kept saeing that no matter wad i sae u onli wad to know wad's wrong. and ive alreadi told u mani times that i dun wish to talk. and that is my ans to u. and my ans is no, i dun wish to talk. but u dun fcuking care because u dun take no for an ans. but the truth is, ive gifen u an ans and that is i dun wish to talk. u feel that i didnt get ur point bcos u onli wan to know wad's the prob. but the problem is, i get ur point & i replied u saeing i dun wish to talk, but u dun get my point bcos u dun take no for an ans!' finally he shut up for a long long time. and i decide, well time to head back. on the wae he continue blahing. fcuking hell. and i sae ok, if u wan to talk then i shall nt go back. and then he sae okok, i stopped, let's go back. and then once again when we're reaching the lift he go on again. and this time i jus turn and walk awae.

after sometimes i went back to the room & knock on the door. and he opened the door and jus slammed it behind me. fcuking idiot! he jus cant afford to lose out to me right? he's damn stupid to quarrel wif me in the first place. bcos i dare to walk out jus like that with nth on me. dun dare me. and furthermore, im pregnant. and if aniting where to happen to me, he know he will be responsible. so why still wan to pick a fight wif me? stupid idiot. aniwae, for the 4th dae, we didnt talk at all. and jus went to airport tog, fly off. im glad that we dun sit together whether we went or came back from vietnam. hahas. and this morning i saw his email. he is damn irritatin lor. i didnt even bother to come and bother u animore, u this loser, still wan to come and irritate me?

his emails:
1st- Thanks for the 'wonderful' holiday. You are obviously a self centered person who doesn't give a shit abt others and think whatever u do is right. Sure i always go all out to 'win' and i know my weaknesses, do u? there is nothing wrong abt having a gd job, at least i don't have to worry abt one thing, unlike yur criminal bf. Face it this world is full of winners and losers.
2nd-

I have accepted my flaws a long time ago and have come to terms with them. I just don’t like to talk about them unless its to my inner circle of friends, people who I know many years and have seen me evolve.You have wasted my time, efforts and $$$, with my only objective to make life a little happier for you. Yes I failed to see that you were so full of yourself that you refuse to even make an effort to make this holiday a success. What does a lazy person like you know about hard work? Go ahead be lazy in life and wreck your kid’s life.You know nothing about responsibility – it is for your own selfish reason that you are bringing an unwanted child into this world. Everything is about YOU YOU YOU what if YOU can’t have kids next time blah blah blah. Nothing about the child. Sometimes you have to kill one to save a hundred. Life is full of hard choices. Deal with it.
3rd- Go ahead, you think people will take your blog seriously? Besides you are just showing your childishness by posting on your blog to spite.Did I ever say I blame my parents for giving birth to me? Poor girl, get your facts and English correct, all I said is we do not choose our parents, and the reverse is true. It’s a statement of fact.I don’t need people to think the same as me – I welcome diversity but am prepared to fight hard for what I believe in. So if you have an opinion, I welcome it, but be prepared to have a healthy debate with me if I disagree. And we can always agree to disagree – nothing wrong with that.You don’t even know me well enough to make judgments like that – and you never will. Go live in your simplistic world where life revolves around you and you only, and ask yourself what have you done for your parents. At least I make them happy and comfortable for the days ahead.Come and talk to me about love 10 years later, maybe you will have more experience then. I have been thru it several times, and there is not one definition of it. One of the best definitions I have come across is when someone else’s happiness means more than your own – that’s when you know. A pity a little girl like you will never know, and you will be bringing yet another unwanted child into this world. I pity you, and you should just have not turn up and save me some $$$.

my last repli:

well, ive alreadi posted all ur emails. 1st to the 3rd. shall see the response of my readers. dey can judge from themselves how a loser still contact me after losing out on an argument in vietnam and doesn feel gd abt it so wanted to continue it in SG again. LOL.
if i didnt remb wrongly, u mentioned 'i dun gif a shit abt hw my paretns & frens tink of wad i do for my life in the past 30 over yrs' so ur parents mus haf gone thru hell wif the wae that u bcame & disappointed i guess. bcos u mention 'u dun gif a shit' so it means ur parents do opposed huh? and nw gifing them a gd life? well well.
oh. also if i didnt remb wrongly 'i alwaes tink abt how ppl around me feel. and make sure i dun hurt them when i make a decision' how does that goes along wif 'i dun gif a shit abt hw my parents & frens tink of wad i do for my lfie in the past 30 over years'. hmm. worst tinking abt. aniwae, bye~ this will b the last email. ive a fun time, seeing tat u are kinda work up and angry when writting the email while im relaxin over here wif a lappie on my lap & sitting on the couch writting this email smiling. take care huh~

can see how much times he keep saeing $$$. no wonder 2USD he also wan to argue. somemore still can tell me go overseas mus buy something. if not stae in SG better. wah liew. duno his brain is wad kinda brain.