ever see 2 person who are having problems with relationship chattin with each other and sharing? lols. that's wad me and qi are doing lor. hais. im not feeling gd. feeling veri lousy instead. is this realli the end alreadi? that night i told him, i duno whether he's asleep or not, but i told him, dun keep pushing me awae. and pull me back when im abt to let go. he can do this once, twice, many times. but der will be a time where im too tired and just want to let go.

i alwaes believe we mus b contended with wad we haf. we mus never compare. but he compared and even tell me so. he's telling me that im a lousy gf. everibodi have their ups and down. everibodi is different. nobodi is perfect. definitely when i see his problems i also wish he can b like someone else. but i told myself, nobodi is perfect. since i love him, i should accept him as who he is. some tings we can try to change slowly. try to accomdate each other. but seems like, that isnt wad he's tinking. he's selfish. damn selfish. he can tell other ppl that he see my changes. but he sae stuff as if he have no wrong. if a problem is there, it's not a matter or who is wrong. bcos both have wrong. jus the weight of the fault.

suddenly im tired of everithing. tired of love. tired of working. tired of doing tings. bad tempered me is coming back after i tried so hard to change over this 2yrs. bang wall and die. hahas