i can do wadever stupid ting i wan. but in the end, i will still nt get him back. in the end, i will still lose him. i wanna b in a clear mind to talk to him. i wanna let him know how much he mean to me, how much i love him, how much i cant live without him. but can i? will i? hw can i? i seems to have such little confidence. just few more weeks to our 2nd anniversary. wad's wrong? just few more weeks.

jus last week, we have our fun time tog. national dae and so on. all the surprises, presents and memories. where haf they gone to? i didnt mean to sae tings tat wae, but i couldn't control myself. whenever it's him, i jus go crazy. i dun wan to hear. dun wan to know that he wanna leave me. dun wan him to tell me he wan a break up. i do not wan.

ive been trying hard to turn myself into a perfect gf. but i know, im not perfect yet. im still the old me. the one which he detest. but ive changed. ive realli tried my best to changed. but wad's wrong? wad's my problem? i duno. i cant tink straight, i cant sae wadever i wan. wadever words came out seems like im complaining. im saeing he's at fault, im saeing he's the one who is totally wrong and ive nothing to do with this failure.

but i dun mean it. i dun. i onli wan him to see how much i'd done for him. i wan him to see my love for him. but i failed. everithing failed.