i bought 2 chanel lip gloss. damn happi lar. hees. 1 is hubby like de. 1 is i like de =p

lately i keep feeling veri tired an restless. im bored wif work and i wan to go out and enjoy myself. i wan freedom, to sleep late, to go out late. but still, i wan to haf money to go shopping! damn. i should jus kill myself. how can i haf such thoughts? i shouldnt! =x

wednesdae going to winnie's house for manny's birthdae! damn happi to see manny. i dun realli remember when is the last time i plae wif a baby or toddler. think i now keep myself awae from kids thou i love them. can i haf 1 of my own hubby? *winkwink* jus kiddin lar

i know now is still nt the time. mayb a few more yrs? i believe we will haf a happi happi family. when i see samantha, i suddenly feel myself being veri xinfu. it's not that im laughin at her. i acutalli feel like killing myself. yes, i know hubby meant well bcos he know tat even if i go down she also may not listen. but well, wad can i do? she's a small lil girl who get bullied so easily, how can i dun help her? and yes, she's nt listenin to me and patch back wif her bf. but der's nothin i can do isnt it? alreadi tell u last time liaos ok? so my wu neh neh dun angry angry lar. i love love u mar. u also love love me mar. love love then cannot angry angry wor.

both of us will xinfu de. im waitin for the dae when we reali bcom husband and wife. maybe it will b jus aftre ur bdae. mayb longer, but no matter wad. im alwaes here waitin for u. like i tell u bfore, my heart is alreadi yours. ive given my heart to you. i wun fall for another person. i wun b wif another person. cos my heart & soul is entirely yours. if i leave u, im no difference from a zombie. understand mar? my love. muacks.