im going crazy soon. sigh. wad the fcuk is happening to me. im like driving awae everibodi around me. i cant tink of ani gd times, gd memories or happy staff. i jus cant get aniting into my brain. i feel empty at the end of the dae, tinkin back wad realli happen, i jus cant get aniting in. im bcoming veri forgetful and being a pest. im making tings hard for everibodi.

realli realli wish to jus go MIA for awhile. i cannt imgaine wad would happen when my mum is gone. tink i will realli go MIA. now wadever im doing - smiling, b a good girl, go to work - is all cos of her. bcos i dun wan her to worriew. i realli wish to take a break. a break from everiting. can somebodi jus bring me go awae for awhile?