been feeling so tired but cannot sleep at night because of my stupid headache and end up sleeping at 1plus everyday. mum have been in hospice for about a week already and it is at novena. been going there everyday after work and reaching home around 9plus 10pm. i cant even remember when was the last time i met up with my friend. 2 weeks ago? her condition is getting so bad that she cant even flip herself on the bed. how long more to go? we're not sure.

with hubby's pending case and my mum's condition. how much time do i have with them? i feel that no matter how much time i have i just don't feel enough. not enough time to sleep, not enough to spend with my mum, not enuff time to spend with hubby. esp with hubby with so many problems there's even lesser time that we can spend together. monday is his court already.

damn. im feeling so empty. but yet, there's nothing that can be done to fill up that emptiness. im done with all the crying. done with all the nonesense. im back to normal. everyday i can do now is rush here and there.

P.S: for any of my cousins or relative that is reading this, pls do not say you want to visit my mum or call up my mum as she is not willing to let people know of her bad conditions. just let her have her wish bah.