have confirm my fear. why isit alwaes like this, when i decide to walk out, this have to happen? why cant i just walk out and just dump everiting behind me?

everibodi wan the best for me. how abt me? what i wan is the same as wad i wan 1yr plus ago. but the confidence, the belief that i used to have is no longer there. i started feel frightened to go thru tat. why mus i alwaes go thru it alone? why am i alwaes alone when this happen? sigh. i know i still haf my frens, but dey aint realli gonna walk bside me and hold me when i fall.

im confused. i know i shouldnt and should faster make up my mind on wad i wan. on wad should b done. on how can it be solved. but i cant tink straight. all i can do is whine and whine. damn, i seem so usless.