specially to zhu:

dun worriew about me hao mar? whatever happen isnt anibodi's fault but mine. hence im not blaming anione. how mani times haf all those who care abt me to leave him? i choose not to. i chose to be stubborn and believe in my heart. my brain is blinded by the love ive for him. im not trying to be strong. it's jus tat im numb now. tat's why i tell u, no feel. LOL. u should get wad i mean right =p

ive no love inside me, no hatred. now i onli fear. ive this fear inside me that i cant get rid of. but i know that i will be fine. wadever im going to walk thru, u haf walk thru it and is happily living now isnt it? dun worriew, if i ever need a shoulder to cry on, need someone to lean on, i will still go find u.

dun ever sae u are useless. if like tat everibodi also useless wor. the pain ive to go thru myself. i choose this path, hence ive to bear everiting on myself. nobodi is allowed to share the pain. i know it pain all of u to see me this wae, but no worries, im realli fine. at least for now.

u guai guai zhao gu urself i alreadi veri happi liaos. dun anihow anihow. when i see 'him' in abt 8 months time i would feel veri xinfu for u also! :)

jiayou wor. me also will jiayou de