bored~ at work doing nuts & feeling damn unwell. i guess ive got too much gas in my tummy. hence alwaes burping & it gifs ppl the look that im going to vomit. but fact is, i wan to burp =x


either making myself busy this few daes or slacking around at home, watchin youtube, sleep. when it's xmas eve, i spend my time sleeping. when it's xmas, i spend my time sleeping almost the whole day, except for waking up to eat & watch youtube, and tat's sleepin again. when it's NY eve, i spend my time sleeping again, when it's NY, i spend my time rotting again by sleeping. yet people who spend xmas and NY are complaining how not wonderful these days are. that they had an argument wif their frens, gfs or bfs. pathetic. wad human really wans?

all the while, since 17nov08, ive never realli been happi. i never show my pathetic look, never show people how ke lian im. never show people how weak im. instead, i make it seems that everithing jus seems to natural to me. that everiting happen for a reason & im ready to accept everiting that comes my wae. pretending tat everidae is a fresh new start. but fact is, i do feel im pathetic. but for wad? feeling that im pathetic doesn earn me ani money nor does it makes me not pathetic animore. and yet, someone tells me that im saeing that she is the one who is pathetic when i sae none of it. when someone is the one who tell me 'we see lor, u take care of urself can liaos, dun need to care abt me' first but accused me of saeing that someone is pathetic. ironic?

crapping crapping. met eugene yesterdae. saw 3 bags that i want at far east. total cost 50bucks+ but didnt buy. is value for money, 3 bags = 50bucks+. but no, it seems too exp for me. thought go taka walk walk since ive a 50bucks voucher. end up? even worst -.- so didnt bought aniting. went kinokuniya and bought the judy picoult's set books. so now ive 3 books to read & it onli cost me $9.95 because ive a voucher from daphne for my christmas :D went to look for erica also, chat for awhile before going off. my back cannot support me for long :( was walking & window shopping from about 6pm+ to 10pm+ and my back is crushing. damn. i need help~ else few more months later, how i walk? =x