my last entry is so damn long~ LOL. okies. updates abt other stuff. as mentioned in earlier post, i haf actualli write a letter and place it in my dad's drawer before i left for my trip. the letter is quite long. 2 pages in chinese. talk abt how i feel & why i wan to cherish this child, that life is precious & i didnt wan to regret in the future abt tings tat ive done & hope he understand and support me. so i came back feeling scared and later my phone was damn low batt so i didnt even call or SMS him that im alreadi back in SG.

he called when im reaching home askin me to take gd care of myself & tat if hungry go and eat etc. he sound veri cheerful. so im not realli tat worried. later that night he came back but didn't sae much. guess is bcos he haven let my sis & bro know abt that. this mornin he knock on my door and sae there's porridge. and talk to me awhile bcos he is rushin to go to work also. jus ask me whose child isit. and i look at him d sae of cuz is johnny de lar! duh. then he asked whether he knew abt it and i lied, saeing that he doesn. bcos if i sae he knows then he will ask alot of qns like wad did he sae etc. dun wanna face those qns yet. so he jus tell me to talk to johnny and see wad he sae abt our future. and his last sentence, 'u wan to keep & gif birth then gif birth lor'. wahahhas. make me worriew for nothing.

haf also spoke to jackson on thurs and he mention that will break the news to my colleagues on mondae when im not around. i didnt wan to sae it out at first. telling him tat dey will know the moment my tummy grows bigger. but he doubt otherwise saeing that dey might even gossip & is better to tell them that. but i duno how to break the news so tell jackson to tell on behalf of me :) so he haf alreadi told them bcos jacq came to msn me yesterdae when i reach home & show me her support. asked abt the reaction of everione. she sae dey all kept quiet & didnt sae aniting. and even some of them thought that me & him is still together! =x

well. the rest of my decision will b till his next letter comes bahs. :)