planning & searchin for more and more information everidae. it's jus abt 6 more months to me gifing birth. another 8-9 months before i will finish my maternity. so, why do i plan so earli? sigh. everibodi is alreadi asking me, 'who's gonna look after ur child?' or 'who's going to help u do ur confinement?' it's as if it is jus 1 week awae. so, im not the ganchiong one. everi1 around me is even more ganchiong. forcing me to research and research everidae.

understand wad my sis sae. our situation isnt that gd. i also dun wish to rely on my daddy forever. im turning 21 soon! i also know tat my daddy is having a hard time to provide for my brother & his sch fees. sis is earning okie. but she doesn have much to spare. she also wish to haf her own savings right? and it's my own mistake. why should i ask other people to pae for it? jus bcos i choose to haf it, doesn mean that dey haf to share. as long as dey support me & dote on my baby, it's enuff alreadi. i can save & scrimp everithin tat i can, to put together for my child. tryin hard not to touch nor ask them for money.

some mum-to-be, edd almost the same as me, asking me why i alreadi ask for delivery package, why decide this and that so fast? is bcos i need to plan my money mar. hees. so, planned & confirm. KKH for me. thou im going to b private suite patient = more exp. but still cheaper then my current gynae. plus minus abit lar. but the delivery is gonna b much cheaper & sis sae she can lend me hers or daddy's medisave, as mine is too lil. alreadi calculated, nt even enuff to cover my own $1.8k which is claimable thru medisave. so dey can lend me, which is gd! then i dun need to fork out cash. so i can save my cash. gonna do my own confinement. it's gonna b tough. bcos it's onli me & baby. gonna order confinement food. not cheap. but cheaper then to go thru the trouble of gettin someone to cook and buy the stuff or lookin for a confinement nanny which i may nt even trust & will worriew for handing my child over. it's gonna b tough. but to save abt 1k, it's worth it! :D money face lehs.

ive 2 months paid maternity leave. i guess im gonna take an extra 1 month to spend more time wif baby then go back & work. and haf to leave baby wif nanny is realli cant find frens or relative to look after. cindy & alfred did offer to look after baby for me after birth. but the prob is dey are staeing at paya lebar lehs! how to pass to them? i also wish to see my child everidae. so, no chice. haf to find someone nearer :)

it's gonna be a tough journey. but i will go thru it. i will tolerate. how painful also dun wan epidural! or pain killer injections! LOL. all bcos u baby. mummy love u