sometimes i cant help but wonder.. if me and hubby have learn to love together.. and not1 of us learning and growing up in the love world, but both of us work hand in hand, learn and grow together, will everiting b different?

when we first started, he was the 1 who is so crazy over me. wadever i sae, wadever i wan, he will try to gif it to me. and i took him for granted. i took advantage of it and get angry for everi lil tings tat i hate and dun wish for him to do. i dun allow him to meet his fren bcos i find his fren childish. i critised everi single 1 of his stuff and frens. inside my heart, i know tat im not doing aniting wrong. bcos wadever i do, wadever restrictions that ive made, it's for his own gd. but i never bother to explain, and argue wif him tat im doing the best for him, never make it a point for him to see wad i see. and finally, i realise tat wad i did was wrong. i should learn the correct wae to love. so i grow, i gif and take - no longer jus taking. but he haf given up, no longer there to try and understand animore, bcos ive deprive him of understanding in the past. and so.. it bcomes me who is crazy in love wif him.. and him drifting awae, further and further awae.

during this 2yrs+ relationship, we have fight, quarrel and break up mani times. but it is funni how we alwaes mange to get back together. but still.. the ending is such..

if, we have both learn and grow together at that time.. will we both be anticapting this baby at the same time? will be both be working together to build a happy small family? i wish, during this 18 months, he will b able to mature, able to tink thru. i wish, we will build a family in the future. even if it meant 1yr after the baby is born. i dun mind. for i still love him. i hope that when 18months end, i will b able to see the other side of him which ive alwaes be yearning for.

on the lighter side, some stupid thoughts tat ive been tinking and making ppl laugh abt it =x bcos baby haf been kickin me more and more frequents, yesterdae & todae is totally from morning to the time i sleep. so i was tinking, in the womb, black black, no tv, no game, nothing. den wad dey do huh? eat, sleep and poo? if tat's the case, then why is baby kickin me all dae long huh?! then i ask them, dey laugh and sae baby will haf their own activities dun need to care abt them -.- and everi single week when i see the baby's growth calender where dey will sae how big is the baby nw. i will take a ruler, measure the CM or inch that they have mention, and put it on my tummy tinkin got so big meh? my tummy not so big lehs =x okie, im being idiot. LOL