i duno whether i should touch my baby's savings of 950 to buy baby's stuff or to keep them for future use. so confused nw. bcos i tinkin, after baby come out, i definitely need some savings to dong, thou i will still haf 2 months of pae for maternity paid leave. but then if i keep dun wan touch the money, i nw so xinku, for wad? -.- i realli duno wad i should do. tink of baby de ting i jiu headache. sigh. auntie lily sae baby cot & pram she will help me to tink of it. if realli cannt find then they will share and buy for me. so touch. as darling side mayb got some difficulities, so mayb not able to get the cot from her liaos. shall see how. mayb for nw jus buy small small ting such as bottles, diapers, towels etc. the more expensive stuff jiu wait till 1 month before giving birth then buy if realli dun haf pass down items.

if me and hubby get together, i definitely am planning for no.2 once we haf settle. for this baby, he's not by my side and thus not particapting and he haf miss out so much. naturally the bonding is also bad bcos onli when the baby is 1yr old then he will b out to bond wif the child. and i haf never intend to gif birth to 1 onli. if we can afford, i would like to haf 3 children :) tat would haf to plan again.

i look at my tummy since im not pregnant to 19 weeks pregnant. realise tat my tummy got bigger lor. is realli big. jus tat bcos i fat. cannt see. LOL. lately keep hafing this tight tight feelin around my tummy. and it's making me feel very uncomfortable. finally at 19 weeks my tummy haf reach it max and need to expand liaos. so nw im feeling tight. cant wait for 20 weeks to see whether will balloon not. bcos many told me by 20 weeks is suddenly bcome big overnight! shall wait for the day ^^ i tink im quite bian tai bcos normally girls dun wan tummy too big but i wan it big big. so i can feel im pregnant! it's onli natural okie

5 more days to my detail scanning!