i cant believe that im being hit by the stupid pregnancy blues. other then at the start of my pregnancy where i miss hubby and cry and such. i totally stopped at that when i was abt to enter my 2nd trimester. and even if i do cry, it's onli for awhile jus for a stupid show. but this 2days ive been crying like hell jus for 1 small lil ting. im going crazy lar~ sigh. onli 98 more days to go and baby darius will be out. and anitime from 71 more days onwards, baby darius is ready to come out and see this world. it's super fast.

i used to tink that im fortunate. thou i dun haf a husband or bf by my side. thou nobodi will be able to accompany into the labour ward, thou nobodi is there to share the burden financially, i thought i would b fine. at least i dun haf a husband or bf whom ive to tink of everiting that i do, thou i may be nice if i can ask opinion from hubby whether this is gd, that is gd and shopping together. but there is bond to be conflicts, which i dun tink i can handle if im preggy. at least i know that there're alot of friends who will help me and teach me the right way to handle a baby and look after me thou i dun haf a mother. thou nobodi is there to share the burden financially, as long as i planned and scrimp, im able to go thru it all.

but suddenly i feel otherwise. sigh. i feel that if onli hubby is here wif me. at least when im hit wif the pregnancy blues, i haf someone to talk to. ive someone there to listen to my ranting and then tell me 'aiyas, dun cry liaos lar.' and sayang me. sigh

aniwae another news regarding hubby. was told that my MP letter was being rejected! okies. should be rather sad, but then, was also told that their head is actualli looking into this case. see if they can make exceptional for this case. *cross my finger* else was told that mayb i can jus write to the prison head. evil him even say, i can CC to the newspaper. wahahhas! okies. i dun tink i wan to b that bad bcos u are shaming and also sort of forcing the head to agree. scarly everibodi also learn from me then i bcome bad examples of SG liaos. den dun wan. but shall see hw it goes. all for baby darius.