jus back from seeing the MP! super long q. smsed shann to ask her to accompany me to go bcos i veri scare. 1st time mar. duno hw others will look at me also. so she said okies and we meet up around 745pm at her void deck. walk there and by the time we reached, alreadi q no. given out. got q no.35 and waiting time is around 45mins or more. super long~ finally our turn. told the representive my problem. then he duno how hw should write or whether he can write so he went to ask around. finally dey sae okie and he write the letter for me. tell me wait outside to see MP. waited another 30mins or so then finally see our MP! i pity and admire him lar. bcos his hand is actualli injured. but imagine him sitting there since mayb around 745pm or so? and he have to go thru so many letters and haf to write and such. but aniwae, he go thru the letter and tell me that he will send the appeal letter for me. and will inform us again via letter.

im no longer hoping to visit hubby. aniwae, i haf alreadi make it clear tat i dun mind not able to visit him. but gif my baby darius a chance and hubby a chance to see each other. hw can u bear to seperate a father and son from birth and not gifing them to see each other for 1 whole yr? tat's all i request. im not greedy. im not asking for my son to be able to see the father every month. but at least once every 2 months. at least hubby can see baby darius and know tat he is a father alreadi and hopefully he will b more mature. and also for baby darius to know he haf a father. and not just hafing a mother. he also needs time to get use to hafing a father. isn't it? thou by the time hubby is out, baby darius is onli 1yr. but in this 1yr, both of them will lose out alot of dey are unable to see each other. im jus fighting for the rights of baby darius and hubby. for me, it doesn matter animore.

aniwae, haf been sleeping quite late recently bcos hook onto the chinese novels. imagine me reading finish 2.5books yesterdae! so i wanted to rush and finish 1 of the novels but until 1am+ i still cant finish and i gave up. switched off the lights and lie on the bed. and i suddenly hear a veri loud 'boom'! i wanted to get up. i opened my eyes. but i stopped myself from gettin up. i duno why. but in my heart i jus haf this thought that i shouldnt go and see. the suddenly i find myself telling myself tat somebodi might have commited sucide. i shouldnt go and see. and tadah~ todae when i went to work, wenyu told me somebodi jumped down from her blk. she's staeing jus 2 blks awae from me. crappy. and my brother said tat he did went to look after the loud bang but onli saw 2 police man and a van coming to bring the body back. eerie.