ticker is going down. left 2 more daes and im down with 2-digit - 99 days to baby darius's arrival. however as i was thinking of some stuff that we chatted over wif sharon and etrini wif regards tot the deposit needed at KKH before delivering. i decide tat i should email KKH and asked them abt their delivery package. and yes, i got the answer that i expected but didnt wan to know. it's an increase of $500!

previously they required a deposit of $780. and now dey require a deposit of $1208. and i went thru the list of the stuff. everiting is the same. even doctor charges also never increase. onli the package itself increase from $920 - $968. it's onli a increase of freaking $48 but why are they asking for an extra $500 more for deposit? it is a government hospital isnt it? and when i asked, they just tell me 'it differs for each and every patient' i do know that! but, u haven answer my qns lor! fcukin bitch. pissed off. they thought that everybody can afford that extra $500?

im still happi previously that ive managed to save $780 for the deposit and i can proceed to spend on baby's item such as steriliser and even buy an airport flask so that i can warm the BM if i need to. and mayb change some parts of the breast pump that im gonna get from devi. but now everiting is dash. i not onli haf to save and scrimp. i even haf to gif up my confinement food. i can jus save and scrimp and get both deposit and confinement food. but now? i can onli jus manage for the deposit. fcuking expensive. i feel so lost now.