have been trying to blog for days. but not sure wad's wrong wif blogger. everiting jus doesn seems right. nw onli haf this small box for me to type. so the pictures haf to wait.

aniwae, baby darius's jaundice is not getting lower. it's in fact remain abt the same level, jus abit higher den the previous time. sigh. it's alreadi 11 days and yet the jaundice is still so high. doctor day that if i wan, i can bring baby darius's to the hospital and they will immediately do the UV ray for him, but it's gonna b kinda exp. and so we have to be more hardworking to sun baby darius's twice a day. but it's raining today. BOO. i wan baby darius to be well soon!

aniwae, the replacement CL is here alreadi and it's a terror. she claimed that she have 3-4yrs of exp and that she is 30+ have 2 kids. but she looked 20+ and the way she handle baby darius, she doesn look like she have experience. even sunning she also don't know! so i decide to watch how she bath baby darius and to my horror she use soap + herb water to wet the hankie and put it in baby darius mouth! it's murder okie. and i scold her what is she doing. she just stick her tongue out at me.

afterwards, the moment she put baby darius down into the bath tub to bath, baby darius start to cry very loudly. im wondering what's wrong but i just have this instinct to go and touch the water and what did i found out? THE WATER IS SUPER HOT. it's the kind of hot where i won't even bath in it okie. and she still doesn tink there's aniting wrong and ive to tell her to bring baby darius out. have to throw the towel to her to ask her to dry baby darius bcos she is onli standing and holding baby darius NAKED + WATER DRIPPING. hell u know?

before this episode, she came in the earli morning to tel me that she doesn wan to work animore. reason? i didnt asked. but my dad did asked and she cry and cry in front of my dad saeing that she scare that my expectation is too high and that she cant handle the job. FYI, before the bathing incident, i didnt do aniting to her hor. in fact even after the bathing incident i didnt even scold her.

why i didnt scold her? bcos i alreadi disheartened liaos. im only worried abt my baby darius and no longer concern about her animore. plus she gimmie that face where she wanna cry again. i dun even know should i laugh, cry or b angry wif my such luck. so i called my aunt immediately and tell her what happened. she sae that it's common sense tat u wun use soap water to wash ur mouth, hw can u do that to a baby? and she called the agent. but the agent doesn answer call animore and they sae that she is busy AGAIN so they will pass the message and ask her to get back by 2-3pm.

i had enuff of this CL and doesn allow her to come close baby darius animore. if she does, i will stand right behind her, beside her and watch her everi move. to me, she is like poison, ive to b wary of her doings and such. and mani times when i try to correct her waes of doing tings, she show me that teary face again. fcuk it lar. im hafing confinement and yet u are making me suffering all this?! i can do al this myself okies.

another ting, she confessed that she doesn have experience in being a CL and that she doesn haf ani kids. IT'S THE AGENT THAT ASK HER TO LIE. but she claimed that she have xperience in lookin after kids. what kids? 3-4yrs old isit? fcuker. i damn pissed. the agency is kidding right. put this kind of people and risk my boy's life? my dad keep telling me that im doing confinement and i cant get angry. i dun even know if i dun get angry, wad can i do also? im realli realli pissed and i cant sleep well the whole night. i even haf nightmare. the moment she come close to baby darius i will be worried.

and due to that episode, baby darius now suddenly will jump in his sleep. arghs. make me so heartpain and not sure wad i can do. so get my dad to buy jing feng shan.

wanted to terminate the contract of the agency since my maid is BETTER then the CL. but fuck the agency, dey jus don't allow. and insist that we take another replacement. they will be coming in the evening time. i shall do a recording of what our conversation is abt. and if needed, i will go log a case with MOM and CASE. it's super irresponsible. it's alreadi the 3rd CL lehs hello? don't u think u have a problem in here?

and they thought that they are willing to compensate is super big. they tell my aunt they will compensate for this CL. my aunt tell them, it doesn matter. if really anything happen, how can you compensate? if we want, we can immediately call the police. it's considered harming a life u know? fcuking hell. when they come later i will gif them hell!

yesterday my aunt came over and she told me that baby darius doesn seems well. plus i told her that baby darius is not feeding. previously he will wake up like every 2-3hrs. max 4hrs, he will wake up to have his milk. but yesterday, he only have milk at 6am, 10am and no more all the way. my aunt came over to my place around 2pm+ and it's alreadi 4hrs since he last have his milk. and they saw that my CL tried to wake baby darius up to feed but baby darius refused and just cry. so they feel that something is wrong. after crying baby darius just went back to sleep. hence they tell me to bring baby darius to see doctor.

we went to the GP and the doctor say that baby darius is not getting enuff sun and we have to sun him 2 times aday. as for the lose in appetite and alwaes sleepng, we haf to watch out for it. if it continues den we may haf to bring him to the hospital directly as there may be some internal infection which doesn cause fever and have no actual symtpons but will onli be known when doing blood test. luckily from last night around 11pm++ onwards, he start to get up for his regular feed again. hope that baby darius will be good and grow up well.