stupid blogger is still down. haf been checking a lot of times everyday to see whether can upload pictures or not. but always cannot! i just don't haf the luck to be able to upload the pictures. and after seeing that cannt upload pictures, i jus no mood to blog.

realised my blog is kinda dead wif no updates. so shall do abit of update.

yesterday bought baby darius to polyclinic for his jaundice follow up again. his jaundice level is raising very very slowly, but still going up. doctor said that confirm it's breastmilk jaundice. and in this case it will keep going up and baby darius have to continue his blood test till de determine his ratio of duno wad and till it comes down. upon hearing this im quite upset and realli feel like gifing up breastfeeding. after tinkin thru, decide not to stop breastfeeding totally but introduced formula and supplement with my breastmilk for about 2 feeds a day. went home check wif my aunt which formula is good. bcos the similac that i bought previously state that to be discard after 3 weeks after opened. and i onli used it for 3 feeds + it cost me $39!

after checking with my aunt and seeing that it's so near to his next feed, i quickly went to the provision shop and bought him an enfalac formula milk. cost me another $39.80! expensive sia. den came back make the formula milk for him. gave him 80ml but he cry for more milk abt 1hrs later. so i latch him on this time. bcos i seriously know nuts abt formula. hahas! i tried to alternate between BM and FM because my dad says that he might not be used to FM totally. so ask me to alternate. but i find it mafan. so sometimes i lazy i jus latch =x

this morning he merlion. i didnt see hw he merlion and such. but when i wanna pick him up from the bed to change his diaper, i saw that he have milk around the mouth. thought he spit out some milk onli. who knows when i go nearer, i saw my whole bedsheet is flooded and it's still flowing! scare the shit out of me. quickly took a hanky and tried to wipe the bedsheet dry, wipe his mouth, face, ears and everiting. im scare and worried but baby darius still smiling at me >.< tink tink for awhile. SMS zhu and tell my dad and decide to bring him go see doctor.

jus nice stacey called me. so i asked her hw's the PD at kidzlink. she said that very good. so decide to bring baby darius there. stacey wanna go out, and im going to kidzlink which is just next to lot1, so i told her ok and told her i will go and fetch her since im taking a cab, she stay so near ma. waited cab for abt 20mins! stupid lor. lately keep no cab one. picked up stacey and went to kidzlink. reached there around 1215pm but the clinic is alreadi close thou their operating hours put till 1230pm >.< so went to lot1 walk abit and feeding time for baby darius! just as baby darius is going to finish his feed, jayven turn to be hungry. so take turn lor. has! after tat i change diaper for baby darius. luckily it's still covered and he poo! jus few daes ago while i was changing diaper for him at home, he poo-ed and shoot out, kanna my whole leg lor! luckily this time still covered sia. hahas! so i never kanna. but his bird bird was not covered and im afraid that he will pee. so i quickly use a wipe to cover his bird bird and true enuff, he pee-ed :D

super happi i never kanna aniting and change for him happily. after tat is jayven turn to change. bcos he's on FM, his stool is not that watery like baby darius. and after stacey haf wiped for him, he start to poo. naughty jayven. luckily stacey haven change the diaper. else waste diaper liaos. den stacey was saeing dun pee or wadever, and he started to pee. LOL! after feed went to kiddy palace and buy the FM container, stroller bag, fan and changing mat for him. spent another 30+. went to kidzlink to register baby darius to see doctor. nobodi is waiting hence very fast it's my turn. the PD is realli gd. he spent quite long time explaining to me, talking to me and even draw out the chart and such. he asked very detailed questions and note down everi single tings that i said.

he told me that mixing FM wif BM doesn realli helps wif reducing the jaundice veri much. the best way is to stop totally, but only 3 days and after that i can continue with breastfeeding again. it will go down veri fast once i stop breastmilk. and when i resume breastmilk, it will go up abit, but drop very fast. so, im gonna start my FM now and no more breastmilk till tuesday. next week would b a busy busy day. sigh.

baby darius abit cranky lately. tink bcos he's spending more time awake and wan people to plae wif him, else he will throw temper by crying loudly. but can see it's fake cry lar. my dad haf a way wif him lor! i duno wad he do, but he can make him quiet without carrying him and later he's asleep liaos >.< mus learn from him! and baby darius get scare easily. duno why. i tink it's his dream. he alwaes jerk suddenly in this dream and wake up crying. haf a hard time coo-ing him. whenever i coax him to sleep, i will sleep also. LOL!

hope baby darius will get well soon! baby darius nw weigh 4.4kg and 55cm (: