was telling aunty zhu that i feel sian and no longer feel like writing nor visiting hubby. i duno why. not sure was it bcos of his last letter that made me feel this way. but aniwae, she told me that she feel i should start afresh. i told her i wrote to hubby telling him that, we shall see how when he come out and start afresh if possible. no longer hanging on to the past. aunty zhu sae she meant puttin everithing behind me. but fact is, he's the father of baby darius. his name is legally in the BC. he is someone i love this much.