hair been dropping like free. afraid that i will go bald soon. sigh. and my dandruff is gettin from bad to worst.
yesterday went to amk to meet aunty zhu, went for poker card reading. okies, this uncle veri cute lar. he speak in hokkien and i duno aniting except veri basic one. so aunty zhu help me to translate. and halfway i realised her hokkien also half half nia lor >.<
aniwae, the moment he open the card he sae, im fierce on the outside but actualli bo ji one lar. if ppl fierce me back i will retreat. onli know hw to fierce at home, outside dun dare to hw one. is quite true lar. i still tell zhu i veri surprise. bcos ive this veri innocent guai guai face so if he is realli bluffing me, wun so zhun one right. hahahhas. aunty zhu alwaes sae i use my face bluff ppl. bluff others tat im actualli veri innocent and guai but actual fact is %*&^&) and i always tell her, my mum gaf birth to me wif this face. not happi isit. muahahhahas.
further into the reading. more and more accurate stuff. he did gimmie advise. but i duno lar. but hor, i find 1 point he sae if not correct. he sae i haf no lack of guys who wanna know me, dun need to worriew abt relationship. tats true. but i haf never worriew abt guys before. but he sae nw at least got 2 guys after me. i think thru the list, it seems to haf none. so if realli got 2 guys, pls come and tell me so that i know whether the uncle is saeing the truth or not ok? LOL!
and yes, if u notice. ive remove johnny from my precious side. he is no longer under my precious. it's not that i dun love him animore. for this relationship, for him, ive realli gif up and did alot for him. but if i can go back and choose again, i would still go the same ting, choose the same choice. wad makes me change nw is baby darius. if u all tink that must be der's another guy in my life, u are veri veri wrong. in fact, ive never thought abt committing into another relationship. i spend all the free time ive wif baby darius. he is the centre of my life now. and will be so for mani yrs down the road. and wif so much abuse case on child by the step father or mothers' bf, it might me even more afraid of finding another person.
i thank heaven for gifing me baby darius. it may be a tough journey. but he brought light into my gloomy days. he walk me thru the darkest period in my life.
Amulet .x. Darrielle 
