bcos the maid spends more time then me wif darius. hence i rely on her to pass me some info, and also on the growth and all that of darius. but she disappoint me and made me realli mad! bcos 4months is when dey can start on solid but i have yet to do so bcos if possible i would like to total breastfeed him till 6 months old. but of cus if he shows sign that he should b given solid ealier like, shorter interval between feeds, i would start him on solid earlier. but when her i ask, i onli make myself angry! our conversation as follow:
baby is every 4hrs drink milk right?
her- yes mdm
so nwadaes baby got cry before 4hrs for milk?
her- yes mdm
then why u never feed him? (bcos i gif her this file where she's supposed to record down the time she feed darius and everitime i see is 8,12,4 too standard! and still 4hrs interval!)
her- he sleeping mdm
*u tell me she understand my qns? so i think she dun understand. i try to twist the words use other methods ask for another 2 times. still the same ans from her. gif up! after tat i went to take paper and start to write bcos she can read but understanding via words is veri low. so i explain and write at the same time. and she tell me she did feed him even if it's not yet 4hrs interval and he cry for milk. so i went to took the file that she did the recording on. and before i sae aniting,
her- today the time i write wrong. not 12pm is 11am
hw can write wrong. look at the clock and write can wrong. u nw then think back is wrong. u lie to me isit. everide 8,12,4. but how come when i home the whole day is not 8,12,4
u tell me why u lie to me
her- sorry mdm
i need u to tell me bcos baby can start solid already but i haven. if u gif me wrong info, then hw i know whether the 150ml of milk is enuff for baby or not. not enuff then hw? he cry for milk?
her- i duno mdm
u duno? baby cry u duno? u at home duno then wad u do? sleep ahs?
her- i never sleep mdm
started to scold her and even told her that if she still continues this way, shall send her back to philipine. after tat super angry and tryin to cool myself down. all the while im scolding her, darius is wif her, staring back at me. but of cuz i didnt scold till those screaming shouting type that will scare darius. just harsh tone lar. after finish scolding i carry back darius and went to the room to play with him till it's sleeping time for him. went downstairs bought cig and call zhu to complain and such. decide to come home and talk to her if she is still awake.
and i jus finish talking to her like duno hw long ago. and i tell u. she cried! i dun fcuking know wad she is crying for lor! duno she is crying bcos she find me veri kelian or bcos she find herself kelian >.< bcos i tell her why i scold her. that is not bcos she lie to me abt the feeding time. is bcos i trust her to look after darius and to update me and such. wad if she is in philipine. she ask her husband, hw's the children. her husband lie to her and sae veri good when her child is sick. hw will she feel. i tell her i feel the same. bcos she spend more time wif darius then me, i need to get from her all the updates and info. i wun know unless she tell me.
then i tell her why darius is so impt to me. that from im pregnant till nw, ive been all alone that johnny is serving his sentence and everi month im onli earning a thousand yet still haf to buy this and that and also pay for darius jab and all. but i dun mind all that bcos darius is the most impt for me. i went thru 17hrs of labour. i went thru the whole labour process myself. after tat she start to tear. wah lao. i tell aunty zhu, i duno she is cry bcos she find me kelian or wad lor =x
that aunty zhu still tell me, can then cry in front of her. she tot so easi meh. wan cry jiu cry. i tell her, from im pregnant till nw. haven even cry more then 5 times. break down once. nw ask me to act and cry. hw lar! i alreadi veri numb to everithing and veri numb to crying liaos. zzzz
hopefully she will realli feel hw i feel as a mother and do her part to keep me an xin!