sad to sae. my milk supply is realli dropping like maid. even fenugreek cant help much. sometimes i even haf to latch on both side to let him feel satisfied. doesn feel ani lump or fullness of the breast anymore. i guess my dream of breastfeeding to 6 months may just drop. even thou i haf plentiful of frozen supply. but im not realli sure hw well he can take in total frozen milk. right nw im alreadi mixing frozen and fresh one tog. fenugreek doesn seems to help too. or wad haf i done that my supply is dropping? aniwae, i will still try.. if realli can't. at least i breastfeed for more then 3 months.

baby darius is getting naughtier! he always scream and throw tantrum. and i always talk to him in his language and he will talk back. jus nw i talk to him and until he got angry! i dun even know wad i do lor. he jus got angry and scream >.< i told aunty zhu and she sae i mus haf said something that made him angry. i replied her, he didnt let me go for lesson for his lanugage hw i know which 1 right and which 1 wrong. muahahhhas.

and he haf been screaming and laughin in his sleep. super funni i tell u. when it first started i will always run and see and he is sleeping peacefully! then came 2nd, 3rd 4th and nth time. and i dun bother animore lar. when he is sleeping and suddenly i hear a scream or a cry, i will slowly take my time walk there. and 99% of the time he is sound asleep.

he woke up at 4am+ last night for feed. after feed i pat him to sleep & i went to lie down. 10mins later he started to make noise. woke up pat him to sleep again, jus going into lala land myself, he make noise again. and tis repeat another time. was angry so i scolded him. and he kept smiling at me! hw to b angry u tell me. even told him 'u dun wan sleep then i dun care liaos. u make noise i sleep!' end up LL still wake up even walk around rock him to sleep.

motherhood! still got a long way to go...