super busy this week! staying back every single day just to do overflow calls and it's realli driving me crazy. been late for the whole week except monday i think and staying back to work extra everyday except today. coming back home doesn mean that i can relax because i haf to do my duty as a mother. and i still need some personal time to slack and chitchat on MSN everidae. so by the time everiting is done, it's like 12am usually. sometimes if im lucky it is onli 10pm or 11pm and i can sleep. but my baobei darius will never allow me to haf a gd night sleep.

for many months nw, he onli wakes up once a night for feed and sleep back immediately. but lately he have been waking up at night to play. and in the past, i can just latch him while lying nw. nw he dun wan alreadi! he dun wan to lie down and latch then turn here turn there but hungry and then cry! dear all, if u think that baby darius is innocent just because he haf a more innocent face then me (as said by aunty zhu) or that because he is a baby, you're seriously wrong! he kicks me out of bed, squeeze me to a corner tilli nearly fall off the bed and wakes me up in the middle of the night! :(

but still, love to see my baobei darius and will always tries to spend sometime with him. just now i play new game with him. i place him sitting on my tummy while i lie down. and i hold his armpit. while sitting down i made him lean forward and kiss him then pull him up again. repeat and repeat and he super love it! end up he keep putting his weight at the front wan to lean forward. den i try another game where i can exercise. it is to place him in the same position but i machiam doing sit up and make myself go up and kiss him instead. he laugh! i simply love it.

nw he also know hw to rub eyes show that he is tired alreadi. at least easier so that he wun b super cranky jus bcos we dun even know wad he wans. nw he rub eyes jiu let him sleep. and jus nw he actalli eat his leg! OMG. i ask aunty zhu, why melon never eat leg, she sae not enuff. i try to stretch abit. realli not long enuff lor >.< darius alreadi can grab and eat the leg liaos. he realli too tall for his age!

this love haf taken it's toll on me
sometimes i jus wish that i can take a break from everithing
but i cant
if im not working as a customer service associate, im workin as a mum
it's a life time commitment
but ive never regretted it
just wish that sometimes i haf someone else to share the burden wif