surprise when i see tags at my blog bcos i thought it's so dead due to my outdated blog. LOL.

work have been super busy. bcos patsy have not been at her desk to work on all those for a long time alreadi hence work is becoming a moutain and now im trying to clear them on top of sudden ad-hoc duties and stuff that ive to clear urgently. lots of filling esp! and worst, we have no place to put our archives file so nw all 2010 applications are with me. stacking like nobody business. i wonder will i really need to get 2 chairs and stack those stuff around me. LOL.

darius's been learning new stuff pretty fast. just last week my maid told me that he can clap when u sing to him. and my brother also said that when he play music he will clap along. smart lil' boy! and last sat i brought him to swim. after swimming for no reason he jus started to wave and wave and wave, wave bye bye (: and we took a cab home. while waiting for cab he jus wave and wave. finally got a cab, the uncle sae, ur boy so clever know hw to help u flag for taxi ah. then i told him, he's saying byebye. LOL.

yesterdae brought my maid for a haircut. i need a haircut too bcos of my stupid fridge. so suddenly darius start to sae 'pa' then i thought i heard wrongly and he sae 'papa' so i told him, no papa. mama. papa not here. call mama. LOL. but he keep 'pa papa pa pa papa' BOOO he bully me sia. and he woke up in the middle of the night then keep say 'papa'.

his 2 top teeth alreadi cut thru the gums. but 1 is bigger then the other. cant wait to see them fully sprout out bcos it will definitely be damn cute. 2 top and 2 bottom. hehehhe. and i love to hear him talk. it doesn matter wad he sae. even if he jus do baba bobo, it's supper cute to me. irrestible (: love my lil prince.

replies to tag then off to do my stuff and sleep!

meiyan: If I were you, I may consider giving him a chance to enjoy his fatherhood bonding with Darius. I will set a time frame of let's say 3 months? And if worse comes to worse and he is not mending his ways, then maybe give up the broken relationshhip and move on. Why I ask you to give him a chance is because you had already stayed single for so long. Might as well give yourself and ghim another chnace to see how things go? (: either way, We are all behind you. Jiayou.

actualli last time my plan was he come out gif 3 months, ok then ROM. but realli too much disagreement between us esp when it comes to his family. sigh. and also i realised that 3 months realli not enuff, and our thinkin so diff. i so worried that bcos i so keen on gifing him a chance that i push all other better guys away. of cuz it have yet to happen. but hw long then enuff? 1yr, 2yr? he will still need to serve his 1.5yrs of NS. practically he can provide me with nothing except his presence. but all the more im afraid that he will be a burden. bcos got someone there means someone to interfer with ur plans, voice opinions etc.

Jessica: After so long and there is darius I guess johnny will get better?! Some how I agree with meiyan that maybe u give johnny some time?! =) If not then move on?!

i very confused lor. aniwae hor, after he come out, he sae he will read thru my blog lar. he sae one ah. LOL. but will he do that i duno. but still, this is my blog so im definitely free to write and sae wadever i wan lar. if i so scare he read and dun blog out my real feelings den dun need to blog liaos. hahhaha. seriously i duno wad to do. i so scare that the days are coming so soon! can u imagine that just 3 more visits to him and he will be out the next time?!