the past few days have been great. thou im veri seriously sick but then i spend alot of times wif darius and takin care of him. whenever im out of sight he will scream out for me or crawl around looking for me. sweet!

brought him to jurong point on fri. supposed to go to vivo but then darius been napping quite alot plus i didnt know whether i should go before his lunch as im afraid tat if go before his lunch, i wun b able to bring his dinner as i onli haf 1 thermo. so decide to go afer lunch which is after his nap. by then alreadi 5+ i think. went jp roam around bought his shorts for his birthday celebration. dinner then home.

saturdae went to vivo, but went there rather late bcos as usual, he nap alot. onli left house at 6pm and reach at 7pm. he was a gd boy bcos he didnt fuss when i fed him his dinner. im all alone so nobodi to help me entertain him at all. there's this guy there who sell the nailcare product and keep pulling me to talk abt his product. im able to siam 2 times but the 3rd time i cant siam and then he asked if im married so jus told him no, nothing to b embarrased ma! then he start to get touchy like touch my hands in circle, touch my back, waist. so told him i will consider his product and i need to go feed darius. he even ask for my no. and then kiss me on the cheeks when i sae bye! fcuk sia. but too sick to argue or wadever. serious flu till i bring my 1 box of tissue out and nearer finish it >.<

todae brought darius to swim. but i didnt go into the pool as im too sick la. i took panadol and seems slightly better. but dun wan bcos im not well then dun let him swm. afterall, my maid always go into the pool tog, so i watch while my maid and him plae in the pool. while changing him into his swim diaper he suddenly pee! he was standing while im sitting and holding him, so kanna both of ours and he's super happy abt that. cheeky. after abt 25mins of swim he was veri quiet so ask my maid wad happen and she said he's tired. shower and change him out of it and left. walk all the way home bcos ive a pram and i know he's gonna fall asleep. dun wan to carry him in and out of the pram and disturb his sleep. he woke up upon reaching the doorstep after abt 45mins.

still super sick and wondering whether i should go to work tml bcos i took mc on thurs and it's no pay. if mondae i take again, still no pae. then i will b left wif abt 1k after cpf only. sigh. wondering wondering.

i believe i wun ever fall in love again. bcos i know, if i fall in love, i will once again sacrifice alot of stuff, do alot of stuff, put in lots of effort. im afraid to b hurt once again. once bitten twice shy. i never thought i could like someone that much. it's been months. we've been dragging on. u came into my life, then mia for a few months then reappear again. i know tats u. but it's affecting me alot. ive not told u. ive onli 1 more month more. 1 more month. and i will try to make this 1 month a memorable one. for myself.