let me say what i want to say here and more when stuff have been finalised. those who are not close enough to me wont know, i hated him very much. maybe bcos i used to love him so much, he disappointed me again and again, thus it became hurt. i tried my best to treat him like a normal friend but i cant help feeling disgusted every single time he tries touch me. especially in front of our friends, touching my hair and all, making others feel that we have patch up. and after that people will asked, hey u 2 patch up huh. it's irritating bcos im giving him face by telling myself not to push his hand away in front of others that may embarrased him.

when he first released, tings seems gd. he seems to b doing a gd job to be darius dad. trying to spend time and bond. and then it get lesser and lesser. last week he visited NIL the week before once. and that was bcos we had to go to a party and so he came. whatever the reason is, i dun fcuking care. wad bothered me was, he dun even have the courtesy to text and inform he's not coming, that he's busy or to even ask how is darius. the things that pissed me off the most:

1) he msn me asking whether i will be home during weekends. told him no. he said he miss darius. so i told him ive party in the noon, he can come over in the morning if he wan. he said okie and even sae he feel bad that he's not spending much time with darius.

ended up? he didnt even bother to turn up, didnt bother to text. and on sundae when i saw him active in fb playing game, i cant help posting a nasty comment that goes like this "some ppl claim to miss his son yet didn't even bother to visit him. why should his son call him papa? he contributed nothing except sperm."

thereafter i believe after seeing this on my fb, he text me saeing that he's sorriew that he's busy this whole week hence didnt come and visit darius. and wad's my repli? i dun even bother to repli. next he still ask me whether i will be free the next day (national day) and i didnt even repli at all. why should i? he wan me to b free and i should b free? he thought wad? zoo? wan come jiu come? fcuk off.

it's not that im being unreasonable that if he's realli busy i still expect him to spend time wif darius and all. it's that he dun even have the basic courtesy to inform. to me, even a SMS like asking how is he. even if i may reply the same old ting everi single time. at least i know u care. but u, not bothering to even text and only come tell me u are busy after knowing im pissed is of wad use? oh yea, forget to mentioned he did text me on friday night. for? to ask me to return him money. LOL. noting abt darius ok :D

2) i owed him $200+ due to the photoshot for darius's 1st year. and so 6 august he text me asking me whether i can return him some money. im not able to return any money for the time being as darius is going to my aunt's place for the time being and i need to buy extra stuff over there, so i told him no.

and todae when i go into fb, i saw his fren tagging him on some clubbing pictures. no money give his son buy milk powder, ask the son's mother to return money. yet go clubbing?

3) and in case anyone don't know yet, he is on PROBATION and he's to be home by 8PM and he's clubbing. so wad does it means? that he's irresponsible.

thats all i wanna say.